It's official. I am in the throes of a quarter(ish) life crisis. There is no logical reason why, no precipitating event, no unhappiness, I just am. I can't turn my brain off. I can't focus on what I need to. I can't seem to contain whatever it is inside me that is churning just below the surface. I feel like I am on the edge of something big, but I have no idea what that something is. NO IDEA. It.is.maddening.
So I turned to pen and paper and I wrote it down. This is what I do when I can't seem to figure things out.
So far I have a list of 12 things. Big things. Small things. Everyday things. Once in a lifetime things. But they're there. I got them out. I already feel better about it.
But now what? Where do I go from here? Tonight I am going to share them all with Brent. None of them are new to him, but to have them all in one place, documented. I want to see his list too. Then I want to prioritize. What can we do now? What should wait? Should we take any big risks, throw caution to the wind on anything?
I don't know what any of this means. It could result in nothing. It could just as easily result in everything. All I know is that I would like my brain back and this is the only way I know how to get it.